2016 has already been a better year than 2015 ever thought about being. For this to make sense I guess I should begin by telling you a little bit about 2015. I lost my Paw Paw Timmons. He was my Paw Paw. I don't know how else to put it. That says it all. I loved him dearly. He was a good man. Then in October I got fired. I hated the job, but I hated getting fired even more. I came home that morning only to get a call two hours later telling me my renter turned in the keys. Not only did she skip out on the last two month's rent, owe me one month's back rent, but she also left an ungodly mess in the house. I now had to pay to clean up the mess, fix the damage, pay all the carrying costs for the house, and live day to day off my savings and unemployment. So yeah, 2015 sucked.
Well, 2016 finally came around. The sun rose and fell enough times for January 1, 2016, to begin. And I was still out of a job, still paying carrying costs on the house, still living off my savings. But I had decided that somehow 2016 would be a better year. I was going to make it a better year. Eventually, it did start getting better. I got a job that not only lets me pay most of my bill, but one that I actually enjoy doing. I started trying to name one thing I am thankful for everyday. My goal is to do it in the morning while I am getting ready for work, but a lot of the time I remember to do it when I get in the shower in the evening. Either way, I am choosing gratitude. Things are not perfect. They are getting better.
Through all of this I am still learning to have confidence in who I am, in what I do. I have learned that there may be more to me than even I thought possible. I have dabbled with a blog for some years now, not really sure that I had anything worth saying. I have always thought myself a terrible artist, too scared to share even some of my best photos. And I would never even consider letting anything I attempted to draw see the light of day. None of it was good enough. This blog is a chance to change all that. A chance to let the world see my vulnerabilities, see my imperfections, and comment on them if they want to leave a comment. So here I am 2016! Let's do this!
Well, 2016 finally came around. The sun rose and fell enough times for January 1, 2016, to begin. And I was still out of a job, still paying carrying costs on the house, still living off my savings. But I had decided that somehow 2016 would be a better year. I was going to make it a better year. Eventually, it did start getting better. I got a job that not only lets me pay most of my bill, but one that I actually enjoy doing. I started trying to name one thing I am thankful for everyday. My goal is to do it in the morning while I am getting ready for work, but a lot of the time I remember to do it when I get in the shower in the evening. Either way, I am choosing gratitude. Things are not perfect. They are getting better.
Through all of this I am still learning to have confidence in who I am, in what I do. I have learned that there may be more to me than even I thought possible. I have dabbled with a blog for some years now, not really sure that I had anything worth saying. I have always thought myself a terrible artist, too scared to share even some of my best photos. And I would never even consider letting anything I attempted to draw see the light of day. None of it was good enough. This blog is a chance to change all that. A chance to let the world see my vulnerabilities, see my imperfections, and comment on them if they want to leave a comment. So here I am 2016! Let's do this!